Define 'love'.
What is love?
1. A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. - Dictionary
2. Love refers to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes that ranges from interpersonal affection ("I love my mother") to pleasure ("I loved that meal"). It can refer to an emotion of a strong attraction and personal attachment.[1] It can also be a virtue representing human kindness, compassion, and affection—"the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another".[2] It may also describe compassionate and affectionate actions towards other humans, one's self or animals.[3] - Wikipedia.
So, based on the stated meanings above, we know that love is from our feelings.
As for me, love comes when you like someone. When you attached to someone.
As a single girl here, which still haven't been in love (in relationship) with anyone, it's hard to actually understand the meaning of this.
Yes--
I've never been in a relationship.
I don't know why.
Maybe--
Nobody likes me.
Nobody interested in me.
Or i'm an arrogant girl?
Perhaps--
I'm ugly.
Okay, guys like beautiful girls or women.
And i'm not one of them.
So yeah.
In high school, I'm not really interested in a guy because I want to focus on my study.
Okay, typical reason for a student.
But right now, the feeling of want to love and to be loved just came.
Maybe as we're growing older, that feeling is growing too.
So, yes.
Right now, i'm interested in somebody but that person seems to not liking me the way I do.
So I just keep that feeling by myself. I didn't tell anyone else, roommates and anyone closed to me.
For me, it's better to keep it but sometimes, in order to move on, we need to tell the person that we love that we like/love them.
Their answers might make us happy. Who knows if he/she likes us back?
But sometimes, the answer might be disappointing. It might hurts us.
In my case,
I ended up falling for him because he is so nice to me.
He treats me so nice and good. He talks in good way with me. He shares his stories with me.
And--
He also told me about his girlfriend.
Imagine how hurts it was when the person you like, talking about someone else?
But I think I did a very good acting, because I guess he didn't realize that I like him.
But who knows he realized but he just acted like he knows nothing (what a jerk!)
And after some days, I distanced myself with him. Like didn't meet him for awhile, didn't really talk to him and only met in class but I just ignored him and I guess he realized that and didn't come and talk to me. But then, oneday, he suddenly came to me and said,
"You didn't even greet me liken usual."
And I was like, "Oh, hi. Hehe."
Then I just went to my place and sit. Acted like nothing happens.
I don't want the feelings come back again.
It just--
hurts.
But then, he broke up with his girlfriend and now he's with a new girl.
Imagine how it hurts to see him being all happy.
And I talked to him, yeah I did.
Talked like we're friend. I put my feeling aside.
I just need to endure it till May. Then we're done with our study.
I just need to endure. Endure. Keep it by myself although it hurts.
So, oneday I ended up googled on "How to forget your crush?"
http://www.wikihow.com/Special:GoogSearch?cx=008953293426798287586%3Amr-gwotjmbs&cof=FORID%3A10&ie=UTF-8&q=how+to+forget+your+crush
1. Accepting your feeling
2. Distancing yourselves
3. Moving on for good.
And now, i'm slowly accepting that maybe he will never be mine.
Maybe he's not my future.
I need to move on for good. For my own good.
Maybe there is another guy out there waiting for me.
I just hope that he will be happy with his new girl.
Wish you the best, crush.
Please don't be good to me anymore.
Please--
let me forget you.
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